Setback, ‘normal’, or new Darin?

7 days since last journal entry.  I think its related to my recent mental state which has been less than motivating.  Even more so than my pre-stroke doldrums that I would, as all do, experience.  I am circling back to the feeling of ‘lack of contribution’ and my state not working through my recovery.  I battle with what I think I should be doing as a member of the community, ie working and being productive, and enjoying/allowing the healing process to unfold as needed.  Though the last seven months I have undergone a massive shift in what I knew to be what life is about.  Its not about chasing the dollar, accumulating things and possessions.  Its about living life with awareness, acceptance,  gratitude to be here, time with family and friends sharing my love and myself.